Ever just get tired?

Tired. The word can mean so many different things. And yet...most people use it without explaining themselves. And when you tell people you're tired...it's a great vague statement. It can explain almost anything...without having to tell anyone particulars. This is probably why I use it so much. But, when I tell people I'm tired...I mean it on many levels. And sometimes those levels are more complex than I want to think about.

Of course, that can probably mean I am not getting enough sleep at night. Which who does? I'm a night owl...so midnight is relatively early for me. Which sucks at 6:30 the following morning! You'd think I'd learn...but I haven't so far.

Or, maybe it could mean that I'm tired of my job. Since the place I tend to use this excuse the most...is at work. And that's true. My job is nothing special, and I'm reminded everyday that I am not special for doing it. So, yes....I guess this version of tired is true for me also!

But, another meaning could be that I am tired of certain family arguments. Or of feeling out of touch with my friends. Or of trying to figure out what a guy wants from me. Or of trying to make myself enjoy my own company. Or of trying to squeeze more money out of money that wasn't there to begin with. Or of feeling like a failure every time I reach for a cigarette. Or of worrying that I'm not someone who deserves to do mission work and represent God. The list could go on and on.

I guess overall....I'm tired. There isn't even one explanation for what I'm tired of....it's everything.